Today, my invisible child would have turned 7.
He would have. If he wasn't dead, that is.
For 406 days he shared himself, full of grace, with mortals.
For 406 days, I was his mother.
Some days, it's easier to breathe than others. Some days I don't have to remind myself to draw another breath in, before exhaling everything I have, deflated like an empty shell.
What a beautiful creature - he's lucky he had a mother with such a beautiful soul.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful boy. I'm so sorry he's not here with you.....
ReplyDeletelots and lots of love to you chica. i'm going to drive my children crazy tonight with lots and lots of hugs from daddy.
ReplyDeleteHugs and much love from one mom to another <3
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful child.
ReplyDeleteSo so sorry for your loss.
Sending love you way~
He is so beautiful. He looks like an angel, truly. I'm so sorry he's not here with you.
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ReplyDeleteYou're still his mother.
ReplyDeleteGwen-- big big hugs to you and your little ones. For sure next time I see you.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful baby. I'm so sorry he's not still here with you, but he will always be in your heart. I can only imagine the heartbreak. :(
ReplyDeleteThis will sound odd coming from me... but when I look at these pics I think "I've missed seeing his face". I remember reading all about him such a long time ago, and relating much to my experience with my Jordan. I looked at his pictures so much as I read your story.
ReplyDeleteHe is absolutely beautiful. xxx
you will always be his mother.
ReplyDeletexo
He's beautiful!
ReplyDeleteAnd you'll always be his mother. He knows that.
xoxox
ReplyDeletealways,
heather
Lots of hugs and loves today, friend.
ReplyDeleteRemembering your beautiful boy with you.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful baby. Gorgeous.
ReplyDeleteSending you love, hon...
ReplyDeleteHe's beautiful.
ReplyDeleteLove to you, mama. On this day and every day.
In his eyes, there are the memories of trees and sky. My heart quivered and overflowed, just sharing this moment with you- with him.
ReplyDeleteI can't explain- except to say, your pain is felt, your heart is heard.
Your writing is amazing. And Elijah was absolutely, breathtakingly beautiful. Just looking at him makes me smile. So sorry for your loss. I am a faithful reader who is in your corner.
ReplyDeleteGwendomama, If you haven't been over already, come see the rest of us at www.glowinthewoods.com - more mamas who know exactly what you're talking about when you say "invisible children" or "dead baby ashes" because all of us have our own. Come sit with us a bit.
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