Wednesday, March 30, 2011

He will never turn eight.


Tomorrow is Elijah's birthday.
He's not turning eight this year.

Tomorrow, Supergirl is also debuting as a flower in her school's production of 'The Wizard of Oz'. It's a big deal, if you didn't know. FYI, the flowers are the very ones who greet Dorothy when she arrives in Munchkinland.

And Bubbles?
He is doing just fine. He's working on distinguishing the differences between 'w', 'l' and 'r', and we are coming along nicely. He also loves music and has developed a recent interest in show tunes.

When I tell you that my son died (almost) 7 years ago, I expect you to understand, at this point, that this is just part of our family history. He's just like Supergirl and Bubbles. He lived in our family.
I am the mama of three.
I will also expect you, as a decent and selfless human being, to allow me to talk about THAT son and the things I miss about him.
Freely.
At any time.
Without offending or skeeving you out.
Seriously.
I am the mama of three.

At this point, it's not too much to ask.

Because I really, really, REALLY miss him.


21 comments:

Sophie said...

Stupid computer ate my comment...

From another mama of three,

Happy birthday Elijah. I am so sorry you are not here with your family. Please send your mama some sunshine on this day. xxx

Hugs. :( I have stopped believing that these days must get easier with time. If anything, it seems harder. xx

nakedjen said...

I just hope you're baking a cake. I mean that with all the love you know I have for you and all of your beautiful children. You make the very best cakes. xo

MFA Mama said...

Awww...sweet boy! I love it when you post Elijah pictures; I just want to gnaw on him.

I'm sorry his birthday is weighing on you, although I'd be surprised if it didn't. I'm here any time you want to talk. xox

Headless Mom said...

Aaw, G, of course you're missing him. You can talk about him anytime. That's the right of a mama.

And I'll bet Supergirl is the best flower ever!

xoxo

Lin said...

Whenever you speak of your beautiful Elijah, the world becomes still and quiet for me. Just for while. But I reflect on you, your beautiful children and all you have accomplished and are accomplishing...because it's a lot G, a lot. You are a terrific mom to all of your children and he will always be one of your cherished children.

Melissa said...

Thank you for sharing the sweet photos of Elijah- he's just beautiful!

flutter said...

of course you miss him, you are more than allowed

Jess said...

I'm not ashamed to say that tears come to my eyes whenever you post a picture of Elijah or talk about him. He is a beautiful child.

Happy birthday, sweet Elijah.

{{{HUGS}}}

Alexandra Cooper said...

The photos of Elijah are so charming. I'm sorry you miss him so; of course you do.

I'm sure Supergirl nailed "flower." You'll post an update after her debut, right?

J said...

I have 2 boys, so I don't say this lightly. He is the most beautiful baby boy I have ever seen.

Tracey - Just Another Mommy Blog said...

Damn, he was a beautiful baby...

He shares a birthday with my Evan who turns 9 today. Elijah will always be on my mind on Evan's birthday. Take care, Gwen.

Jennifer Byde Myers said...

Thinking of you,and all three of your beautiful babies.
xo

kel said...

My little ones 15th birthday is in June and she won't be turning 15 but she will always be my little girl even though she has been gone for over 14 years. I will always be a mama of 3 too.

sarah said...

What a beautiful boy! You can talk about him ANYTIME you want.

NG said...

Amen

Magpie said...

Oh sweetie. Thinking of you.

The818 said...

Happy Birthday sweet boy. <3 to your Mama, too.

CecilyK said...

Another mom of three here. Thinking gentle birthday thoughts your way.

Jenny said...

Delurking to say that he is definitely, without a doubt one of the most beautiful babies I have ever seen.

Amelia's Mom said...

Elijah is such a beautiful baby!

My angel-daughter would have turned 8 weeks today. From my experience so far, I can tell you that you can do anything you want and need when it comes to your children, Elijah included! You set the rules, and you can stick to them or break them.

Sending you hugs and peaceful thoughts,
Alena

Melissa and Joel said...

He is absolutely beautiful.