Monday, December 10, 2007

When four seems like old age

Tonight, Supergirl asked me how old Elijah would be right now.
You know.... If he was still alive.

Four and a half years old, I answered.

And then I gulped.

Some tears were shed.

I am really missing him right now.


nailgirl said...

Oh oh oh hugs. I have said it once or twice or a million times before. you are my hero for dealing or not with the worst shit dealt to you ever!!! Hugs.

gwendomama said...

thanks. i especially love how you give me room for not dealing with it. that is meaningful.

sarafoop said...

*hugs* I never got to meet Elijah, but I miss him too.

nailgirl said...

Yeah cuz who really deals with that?

Carrie (aka Alli's mom from LissAngels) said...

Alli would have been four in March this year... Hard to believe! Anyhoo, I feel ya girl!

Anonymous said...

I just stumbled upon your blog, and I'm already addicted. You seem incredibly strong!

If it's ok, may I ask how your son, Elijah, died? I have read about how your son was very small for his age, but I don't see what he was diagnosed with, or how he died?

My baby is 9 months old, but looks like he is 5 months old. He didn't gain a single pound until he was 6 months old. I have taken him to several doctors and they all say there is nothing wrong.