Monday, December 10, 2007

When four seems like old age

Tonight, Supergirl asked me how old Elijah would be right now.
You know.... If he was still alive.

Four and a half years old, I answered.

And then I gulped.

Some tears were shed.



I am really missing him right now.

6 comments:

Denise said...

Oh oh oh hugs. I have said it once or twice or a million times before. you are my hero for dealing or not with the worst shit dealt to you ever!!! Hugs.

gwendomama said...

thanks. i especially love how you give me room for not dealing with it. that is meaningful.
g

Sara said...

*hugs* I never got to meet Elijah, but I miss him too.

Denise said...

Yeah cuz who really deals with that?

Anonymous said...

Alli would have been four in March this year... Hard to believe! Anyhoo, I feel ya girl!

Anonymous said...

I just stumbled upon your blog, and I'm already addicted. You seem incredibly strong!

If it's ok, may I ask how your son, Elijah, died? I have read about how your son was very small for his age, but I don't see what he was diagnosed with, or how he died?

My baby is 9 months old, but looks like he is 5 months old. He didn't gain a single pound until he was 6 months old. I have taken him to several doctors and they all say there is nothing wrong.