Friday, May 11, 2007

milestones

Each year is different.

Last year I decided that Elijah's birthday was harder than the death anniversary.

So imagine my surprise when, this year, the birthday was immensely hard. And then yesterday and today sucked beyond belief. Beyond belief.

I have gone from being a crying puddle on the floor, to actual parenting moments and hugging my living children.

I am feeling very sick (which I am right now) and very emotional (also true).

This is very hard.

6 comments:

sarafoop said...

Love to you, mama. *hugs*

Lin said...

Wish I were there to give you a hug, kid. I have one friend who lost her only child in an accident many years ago. All mothers who have lost children understand the depth of your misery. I send you love. xoxoxo

Georgia said...

You are such a great mom! I'm so sorry- I know how much you miss your baby Elijah. Love, Georgia

jenijen said...

love you

Elizabeth said...

Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry. You must have every emotion in the book today. Big loving hugs to you and your family-Happy Mother's Day.

xoxo
Elizabeth

Sandi said...

I recently came across your blog and was touched by your honesty regarding your horrible loss. I am so sorry and hope today is a better day.